Decisions.....decisions.....

I’m so bored omg…. July seems to be a month to accomplished unfinished business. I just have to be working in PN this whole month! Allowing me enough time to do research on migration and also to study for my English exam which is going to be beginning of next month.

You may think that well since I have internet I can do whatever I want.. right? Not really. Many sites are blocked. Honestly I don’t see the point of blocking hotmail. Yes we can get virus from dld files from forwarded msges. But we’re humans. We’re not dumb enough to actually dld things using a company computer? Plus I seriously think our IT is a bit scary. They can actually see what we’r doing at this moment with the computer from their computer in the mainlab. In fact they are probably reading this while I type! Say hello pls if u read this.. lol.. I’m super bored so just spare me some time to blog aight?

I’ve checked out some of the things I need before applying for visas and the more I read the more stressed out I became. It turns out that there’s too many rules to abide and too many steps I need to take and do not to mention spend before applying for the visas with no guarantee that I’ll be getting one. At first I thought after taking the English test I’ll have enough points considering that “medical scientist” was my profession which is enlisted in the SOL with 60 points and that working for about 3 years in that field will earn me another 5 points. Great isn’t it? But no.. the more I read the more worried I became. First of, to get the 25 points I have to be assessed by AIMS that I’m qualified. And to be qualified I’m either graduated from so and so uni with so and so degree. Bachelor to biomedical science do not qualify to be a medical scientist! WEIRD. Bachelor of Science (Medical laboratory science) or bach of medical lab science is. The definition of medical scientist is like what I’m doing now .. but not what I studied (as to be a researcher). So what is… my qualifications then? Another kind of assessment is that if I’m not graduated with such degree at so and so uni then I need to take a written examination on all the medical field (haemato, histo, cyto, microb, etc etc). Seriously…. I’ve graduated like almost 3 years ago. I can’t possibly sit for an examination without any proper education for so long. My mind is only filled with all the SOPs of my current work job and all the information I need for my current job. Plus, I don’t want to work in a diagnostic lab anymore. I feel the need to do something which I really want. I feel like my whole life is wasted. Why did I not cont honours? Why did I come back to work here in Malaysia? Makes me wonder… when I have so much opportunity if I were to stay back in Aus.

I’m seriously feeling stressed out. I’m feeling a lil desperate to get a visa or a job in aus to let me secure my place in aus. There’s so many things I want to do yet I cant. It’s a bit frustrating. Is it really that hard to go aus? I see so many ppl I know now living in aus and working if not still studying but at least they have permanent residency. Why can’t I have it too? Mousie is it really that hard? Should I go through an agent? Would it be better? Should I just beg my parent to loan me money to further my studies? Arghhhh

I thought going through Ielts will be a my first step through the process. Which, I’m happy and excited to say that that’s what I’ll be doing next month. Finding a job is the second step in coherent to applying visa. But then all the processes need money and I’m not saying hundreds.. I’m saying thousands… it’s really frustrating. YS keep telling me that I’m being too negative about it and that I should have my mind straightened up. If this is what I want.. then I should just go for it and not think too much about other things. Truth is I’m not thinking about other things.. but reality makes things complicated. *Heavy Sigh*